Well…..I’m back! Last time this blog was about my journey towards the stage. This time this is just my journey towards balance. I have learned a lot about myself in the past year. I’ve learned that when I commit, nothing can stop me. I’ve learned that I love to train and see my body transform. I’ve also learned that I’m all in or all off. To me losing weight is the easy part. It’s maintaining that level of fitness that is crazy hard. Since the competition, I have struggled. My mind went from being ecstatic for accomplishing such a huge goal to WHAT NOW????? I’m very much a goal driven person. I need that goal to reach towards. I need that constant accountability. But I have come to realize that if I truly want that physique I’m going for, I need to find it in ME to get it. I need to change how I think sometimes and, well, find that balance. I made some awesome changes in my body during comp prep, but I also felt deprived and therefore, when it was over, I kinda went a tad crazy! So I have decided I need to get my butt in gear and figure out how to live life AND be strong and fit.
2015 is going to be an awesome year. In June we are taking the kids on their first vacation to Florida and in October Joe and I will be celebrating our 10 year wedding anniversary and treating ourselves to a trip to Aruba!!!!! So I have that motivation to feel comfortable in a swimsuit on both vacations.
This past year I have continued to work out. I have continued eating mostly clean and healthy, but now I’m ready to push it further. I did a 10k series last fall which was three 10k races in three weeks. That was fun and I will most likely do that series again. And about six weeks ago I started the Insanity Max program. I needed a change and a program to follow so I turned to Insanity. Let me tell you IT.IS.HARD! But I am really enjoying it. The first four weeks, I did lose a few inches overall, but didn’t lose any weight. Yes, I know, I know….the scale isn’t everything but it is something. Besides the competition weight, I haven’t been able to keep my weight down since having Mason….he’s 3!!!!!!!! Time to get my butt in gear!!!!
So like before, I’m starting the blog again to hold myself accountable. To track my journey. To write about my struggles and accomplishments. To let others know that it is possible to be healthy and work out of the home and be a mom, a wife and a friend. But it will take work and preparation.
So there it is. This is my journal to figuring out how to get to MY happy place.
The plan: I honestly don’t know yet. I’m in my sixth week of Insanity Max so I will finish that out. I might add in more cardio, but I WILL finish that program. When I finish that it will be 12 weeks from when we go to Florida. I haven’t 100% decided what I will do for that, but I’m working on it. What I do know is I must clean up my diet and be consistent.
Another thing I plan on working on is a positive mindset. I have to learn or retrain myself to not focus on the negative, but focus on the positive. Instead of thinking, “UGH, I wish I didn’t have these love handles.” I need to think, “WOW! Check out my muscles in my arms!!!” It’s hard, but I think slowly I can change my mindset.
Fit & Witty 